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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 08:04

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

All the time i was locked up.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Has Pope Francis signed a document that gay men can now become priests?

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Is dating in college necessary? Why and why not?

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

She loved him until the end.

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Comes on , in middle age.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Why does the God of the Bible condemn homosexual acts?

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

But ive been too sick for many years..

Democrat voters, why are you so naive, easy to manipulate, can't see a liar standing right in front of you and why won't you research your party? You will find they have a plan for all W. Nations and it's evil.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Why are European countries warning European travelers to be careful traveling to the United States?

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I think the readers, may guess!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

My dog is 2 weeks old. He's not eating, moving and always sleeping and I can't take him to a vet. What should I do?

So, i spoilt her more .

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Can I fix a fridge leak myself, or should I call a pro?

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

One cannot live in the past .

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

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What did i know ?

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Are rich people harder workers than poor people as a whole?

This is how, and why children get BPD.

We were not on the streets..

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

What are some ways to improve speed in sprinting, running uphill, and long/middle distance running?

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I was 9 years of age.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I have no regrets .

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

(And it was in our own minds.)

She was in good health!

This is soul school!.

I said to her

I had hoped to write a book about this .

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

It was going to be , some day.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

But it wasn’t much.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I never cut or harmed myself..

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Im still living with it.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I write beautiful poetry .

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

And i lived it daily.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I was scared of men, in general

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I will be 64.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I don,t even have a pension.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

But, we were locked up after school.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Why did i forgive my father ?

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Especially a lifetime of it.

Was to survive, this bastard.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

My family never makes their pension either.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

As i do to all so called friends.?

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I could never make a relationship work though!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

She married twice! .

Who then, do I blame.?

She found it foreign!.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I was very sick at this time too.

Ive learnt so much.

I couldn’t, believe it.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I was seconnd youngest,

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

We all went to grammer schools

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

And who doesn’t know suffering?

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I waited trembling.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

So whats the point in blame.

Put me off passion for life!!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

He resisted the act ,that day.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

My life is so biszare .

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

When she asked me how she looked .

Would this be the day?

He knew the spot.

She wouldn,t have been !

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

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