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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 23:49

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Why in my 60s do I have a strong desire to suck cock and swallow?

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Was there any slavery of white people that actually compares to the transatlantic slave trade? I’m not baiting or anything actually genuinely curious and want to know.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

She loved him until the end.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

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I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

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The only rule us 5 kids had .

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Is it legal for an employer to ask why you are taking time off from work?

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I could never make a relationship work though!

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I was seconnd youngest,

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I was 9 years of age.

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It was going to be , some day.

She was in good health!

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

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She wouldn,t have been !

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

He resisted the act ,that day.

Why is America so fucked up?

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

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She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I was very sick at this time too.

But it wasn’t much.

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We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I don,t even have a pension.

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I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

How do you relax?

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

We were not on the streets..

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Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I write beautiful poetry .

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

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Put me off passion for life!!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

We all went to grammer schools

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Especially a lifetime of it.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

She found it foreign!.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

So, i spoilt her more .

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I was scared of men, in general

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

So whats the point in blame.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

And i lived it daily.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I have no regrets .

Would this be the day?

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I said to her

Im still living with it.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

But ive been too sick for many years..

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Ive learnt so much.

What did i know ?

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

All the time i was locked up.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

But, we were locked up after school.

I never cut or harmed myself..

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I couldn’t, believe it.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I will be 64.

I think the readers, may guess!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

He knew the spot.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

This is soul school!.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

As i do to all so called friends.?

I waited trembling.

When she asked me how she looked .

Comes on , in middle age.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Was to survive, this bastard.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Why did i forgive my father ?

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

My life is so biszare .

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Who then, do I blame.?

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

One cannot live in the past .

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

She married twice! .

And who doesn’t know suffering?

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

My family never makes their pension either.